Mine last year was to not out right lie, only twist the truth, and to not lie at all to those I care about. Well I did that and it was actually really easy. I don't think I could even spin one of my good old lies like I use to. But this Holliday kinda gets me down. Any Holiday your expected to drink till you pass out isn't good memeorys for me. This Holiday also has another reason. It's the Birthday of a awesome girl named Jessica that is no longer with us. She'd be 18 today.... But the other reason... drinking brings bad memeorys. of the last time I let myself get drunk. I smelled a empty bottle of Crown Royal, the same drink I downed a entire bottle of without a blink. And all I remeber is the smell of vomit and wakeing up lost, running in the streets, vowing to one of my closest homegirls that I wouldn't leave her when she left me to the mercy of a stranger in a car. but it wasn't the posioning or the blame, or the talk about what happened that made me regret that night. It was the loss of my own self respect that hurt the most. But tonight I've sworn not to regret the things I can't change. No Regrets was like a vow to Jessica. From what I know, She lived without them the best a person can. If I have another resolution it will be to put the past behind me and continue to move on to a better future. I'll remeber the words of Lady Q and Jessica Walker. I'll Remember where I came from, and the people that touched my life and left my life so quickly, and those I left behind. I'll rememeber the friends I lived for on those nights I'd rather forget. Maybe this year I'll learn that I can't save the world. and I'll keep in mind my old vow, to Live for yourslef because your the only one that can save yourself or destroy yourself. I made who I am today and I won't let another person brake me no matter if I don't know where I'll sleep, or where I'll end up in the next few years. I'm going to try and really move on with my life. I don't have much keeping me. This wasn't ment to sound sad or anything like that. It just helps me. so Live, Love, Freedom and Peace.